The time is held. The confirmation is on its way. Nothing else is needed from you right now.
There is no right answer. But if the question is sitting on your shoulders, here are three honest options.
This is the option I recommend most. The conversation does not require your performance. It does not require your readiness. Stop performing the wait the way you have been performing the rest of it.
Without trying to fix it. Without trying to articulate it for me. Just notice what is asking to be looked at. That is enough.
If reading helps you arrive — the manifesto is here. It is not preparation. It is the room I work from, in writing.
"Whatever you have been carrying — you do not have to carry it into our conversation already named. Bring it as it is. That is what the hour is for."
I will see you on the call.